Regrets Looking Back || Julie & Dan
I regret the fact I haven't posted since June. So many experiences and opportunities have happened between then and now. Like most, I've spent the past few weeks organizing the loose ends of 2016 and looking into 2017.
I felt in posting on the blog I'll be working towards a few of my goals for 2017. One, being more active with my photography. Another, completing things I've been putting off - in this case, posting on this blog. And finally, being more real and open with those of you who care about following my journey.
In no way, shape or form do I regret my session or time spent with Julie and Dan. They are by far the most caring, passionate and loving couple I have ever met. I connected with Julie in college and soon met Dan while visiting their shared apartment. I knew these two were forever from the second I met them. From clips on their social media, to how Julie's light up while talking about her love - I can't picture a more perfect pair.
What I regret is thinking I wasn't good enough. I have a lot of self doubt as a photographer and of my skill. I think it is important to notice your limitations and be honest with yourself about what you can do. But with that, I also regret not being fearless and brave.
Let me explain. When Dan popped the question, it was a no brainer that Julie said YES! Like any excited bride, she began to plan her perfect day. That includes a photographer. After going back and forth for a little bit we planned to shoot an engagement session. We had a blast, couldn't stop smiling and they had no lack of love to show each other. I was happy with the session and love the images I was able to send the two. When Julie said she was interested in having me as her wedding photographer I was ecstatic. I quickly said yes.
The truth is as time went on, I got nervous. I started researching wedding photography and how to ensure I was successful on their big day. I had never shot a wedding before. I had no experience, and I was constantly comparing myself to the professionals who had done it for years. I couldn't do it. So I sent the worst message I could, and told her I wasn't able to shoot her wedding. She, as gracious as she's ever been, thanked me and wished me the best.
The purpose of sharing this story with you is to remind you that you shouldn't be afraid. You shouldn't be afraid to know your limits. You shouldn't be afraid to say no. You shouldn't be afraid of not being good enough. You shouldn't be afraid of the unknown. You shouldn't be afraid of sharing your feelings.You certainly shouldn't be afraid of regret.
So cheers to the new year and facing your fears. I know I plan to take this lesson and PROVE I am able.